Thursday, May 13, 2010

Top Ten

Well last night ended and this morning started off with me compiling a top ten list of reasons why today is a bad day. It was a good list too, in my opinion. Everyone is entitled to their “everything is going wrong” days and I declared today to be mine. Those who know me know that I try to embrace everything thrown at me wholeheartedly and I try hard not to let things get the best of me ….but I am still human and appreciate my whiny days to gather perspective and put my head back on straight. I allow those days so rarely that I felt it was justified. Wrong. Who am I to declare how my day will play out?

So, I’m shredding the negative top ten list and sticking it to Satan and creating my “Top Ten Reasons I’m Thankful” list! These are in no particular order.

10. I have a wonderful family. Just last night, I was able to sit on the couch with my husband and son and spend some time together (Emma was already asleep). Okay, this was while watching the Biggest Loser (haha), but we were still together and it was a moment for me to appreciate since our schedules are so crazy normally. The two of them will never know what those little moments mean to me or the depths of my love for them (maybe corny sounding, but so true). Of course earlier in the day I was able to spend time with Emma and those moments are always as equally welcomed and appreciated. I think everyone knows how I feel about that! These three people are my world.

9. I have some amazing friends. Whoever once thought the quantity over quality of friends was more important…was WAY wrong. I wouldn’t trade my handful of friends for anything in this world. They love me for me (which says a lot!) and I couldn’t ask for anything more. They are the people who build me up when I need it, are also there when I need a listening ear and make me feel loved. Just a sample….yesterday was Emma’s IEP meeting (a pretty big one). It was a big day for us. And within 24 hours (and yes I had facebook comments, texts, emails and phone calls from other friends and family members and I am so thankful and appreciative to each one of you for your care and concern, but this number 9 is about friends so I’m pointing out three specific things that occurred with 3 close friends :)…

Yesterday afternoon, one friend called to ask how Emma’s IEP went and was encouraging as always boosting me up…and I might mention she took the time to do this on the way to a funeral for a family member. So amidst an unexpected tragedy in their family, she took 5 minutes to call me. Me! Wow. Thank you friend, you know exactly who you are.

Another friend met me for lunch and this was a planned meeting for the sole purpose of being there for me so I could talk about the IEP and how I felt once it was all over. She knew I would need her and she was there. Thank you friend, you know exactly who you are.

Then this am, at 7:30, I received a phone call from another friend who gave me some very encouraging words that came at a perfectly needed time. She went on and on about what a great advocate she thinks I am for Emma :). She said this from both a professional and personal standpoint, which made it that much more meaningful. It meant the world to me to receive that phone call. So, thank you friend, you know who you are.

Friends, are a great blessing.

8. I have baseball. I love baseball. Again, for those who know us well, you know baseball is a big part of our world. Jon played it. Drew plays it. Emma plays it. I play it…just kidding. I’m just seeing if you are still awake. I don’t play it, but I certainly watch it and love it! Drew has been fortunate enough to play on a travel team for 5 years now and has played regular season baseball for 8 years. We eat and sleep baseball during the season. This weekend is our first travel team tournament of the season. The team is also going to Cooperstown, NY in July!

7. I have our parent’s health. Jon and I are so fortunate to have both sets of parents and their good health. None of us are ever promised tomorrow, but we are so glad they are here today and present in our children’s lives so they will know and learn their heritage. Not much more to say about that, but certainly something I am thankful for and never want to take for granted. We love our parents dearly.

6. I have my job. And Jon has his job. Obviously anyone who has a job these days should be thankful. Even though it was sad and hard for me to enter back into the more consistent work world over a year ago, I stumbled upon a job (thanks to a recommendation from another good friend!) that allows me to leave each day in time to pick up the kids from school. I wouldn’t have it any other way at this point. I am able to still be mom first and work second. So thankful for this!

5. I have my home. Our home was the perfect fit for us back when we were 23 and only had Drew. We have since outgrown it tremendously, but until we move out of it, it is still our home. The home we have been blessed with and worked hard for. The home where our kids have been raised thus far. Yes, the house is full but I am thankful for a warm place to rest my head at night and to know that we did it all on our own at such a young age. Our home.

4. I have my faith. Though I have not ranked these in order, this is by far the most important thing I am thankful for. I am a daughter of the King and He loves me. Another reason to not stumble into the wrath of letting a bad day get to me…. God knows the plans HE has for me and HE is in control of them, not me. Jeremiah 29:11 (New International Version) “For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”. My faith. Something strong, solid and grounded that can never be taken away from me. I have my faith.

3. I have hope after an iep meeting. What?!? Say that again. I have hope after an iep meeting. This is rare I must say! Ask any parent who has sat in an iep (individualized educational plan) meeting. Now I must preface what led up to this moment. Do you have all day to read this blog? Hmm, let me be as concise as possible. After a long battle, we have decided to retain Emma once again next year and mainstream her into a regular kindergarten class. She will be pulled out for two hours a day for some resource (reading, writing and math). This seemed like an impossible challenge months ago, making everyone listen and understand where we are coming from, but we did it!!!! We are going to try it. It may or may not work, but I have done my best to give my daughter what I feel she needs. I have not been pushed into a corner and I have not given up. To walk away from one of those meetings and feel relief is an amazing feeling. One I don’t think I have experienced in her 7 years yet.


2. I have blessings. Oh my. Blessings. I can not even count all the blessings handed to us over the years. I really can’t. Some tangible, some not. There have been so many but they all deserve recognition! Blessings have been through some very tough times as well as some very good times. (Insert my little blurb about paying it forward). You never know when a blessing is just what someone needs. Just keep that in mind and pay it forward because I am sure each of you has been blessed. In fact, I know you have.

1. I have life. We all have life. As I said before, none of us are promised tomorrow. Today though, I have my life. I am so thankful for each day that God allows me to wake up, refreshed and renewed and live another day on this earth with my family and friends. So, since each day is a gift, I am committing for living the rest of today in a better spirit than how I started it this morning.

Want to join me?

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Gifts

Webster's definition if the word "gift" is:

1 : a notable capacity, talent, or endowment
2 : something voluntarily transferred by one person to another without compensation
3 : the act, right, or
power of giving

Let's focus on the first definition. "A notable capacity, talent or endowment"

What are your gifts?

We all have them...even if you feel like you don't. Everyone has something they are good at. Really, I promise! And it's okay to be proud of your gifts because God blessed you with those and he wants you to use them!

Over the years I have learned what my gifts are and I also enjoy seeing the gifts in others too. I have learned that I enjoy helping people, whether it is by lending a listening ear, helping them with actual tasks, teaching, babysitting, taking on projects, giving or simply praying for them. I have also learned that I have the gift of couponing. It sounds funny, but it's true! I only discovered couponing about 2 years ago but man has it made a huge difference. Now I am choosing to share this talent by teaching 2 upcoming coupon classes for others to learn. Another gift I have is being an advocate. I think every parent (and especially a parent of a child with special needs) inherits this gift, whether they want it or not! :) I have enjoyed and embraced taking on the task of standing up for what is right for my children. Now that I have shared my gifts, I would love to hear what yours are! I encourage you to tap into your inner self and discover what they are, if you don't already know. I also encourage you to make sure you are using your gifts each day to glorify the Lord. Remember, he is the one who gave you those gifts!

Romans 12:3-12

3For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you. 4Just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, 5so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. 6We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. 7If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; 8if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully. 9Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. 11Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. 12Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. 13Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.


Don't forget to leave a comment. Let us hear what your gifts are...

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Emma's Endocrinology Visit

Yesterday we had a routine visit to the endocrinologist for Emma's thyroid check. We go about every 4 months. Emma waltzed in excited as always to visit the doctor. She is always so cheerful, and all the nurses love her because she is so compliant. This is despite the fact that she has had 5 surgeries (nothing too major, other than her eyes thank goodness) and multiple doctor's visits in her short little life...more than I have had total in my 31 years. She stood there so proud and confident through the height and weight measurements, temperature, the blood pressure (which ended up being taken 6 times throughout the visit because it was slightly elevated- turned out normal, but left marks on her little arms), the doctor checking her head to toe and the lab drawing six tubes of blood. My amazing Emma.


Patiently waiting for the doctor after getting on the exam table all by herself!

But, yesterday was different. Yesterday provided a much needed perspective for myself, that came from my sweet daughter. I draw so much inner strength from her on a daily basis. It's a sweet but almost painful kind of strength that just takes my breath away. It's the strength that melts away everything negative. It's the perspective that knows no evils of the world and appreciates everyone and everything within it. It's the innocence. It's the true meaning of LIFE and LOVE.


Look mom, I'm ready!

But the most amazing part came when it was time to draw her blood. We started this distraction (of waiting and waiting at appointments) by taking pictures and sending them to daddy, Nana, aunts, friends..everyone! Emma did start to get a little antsy when the lab tech put her gloves on, so I whipped out my phone and this was the outcome:


She is actually smiling. SMILING. Amazing.
So thank you Emma for yet another reminder that you were sent here to show us and teach us daily. I am so proud of you in all that you do!!! You literally take my breath away...